Everything changed. The people around me had changed.
I changed!! Why am i in this state when im always so worked up in love.
I fear to love. Fear to get attached. Fear to get hurt. Fear to disappoint you.
The fact that every love ends w a teardrop. The fact that "happy ever atf" dont even exist. The fact that 100 out of 1 is tiongxim couples.
I had this feeling that i dont belong here. Like this ground wasn't for me to walk on.
Did you ever fall fo somebody you think you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but just couldn't?
You fall deeper and deeper down every single day.
But tried your very best to hide it in every possible ways.
In this wide world, nothings forever.. If theres someway that i could make my life easier. I dontmind shortening my life to make thing better. Every single day and night, memories flashes throught my minds. Kept me in deep thought of the past times.
Have i dont smth wrong?
Am i right to do so?
Can someone please lead a way for me. Theres no point in my life now. Idk what tdo with my life now.
I told myself we're not meant to be tgt. You should be hers and i should be living in a world of mine. But why did things changed totally opp. You're not mine, from the start. You wasn't suppose to be mine. Right?! Then why must i cling and love you?
Though fate brought us tgt, but destiny seperated us, i guess. If we're not meant to be tgt then im willing to let go and let you find your happiness while i live in my own small world which only contain me.
Now, my life is in a mess. I dint know what to do! What should i do? Why ??!!~
I might be smiling because you smiled. I might be smiling just to show that i could fake a smile.
I might be smiling just to show that im strong enough to take the truth.
I might be crying because i cant take it anymore.
I cant possibly make you mine. I cant possible take away someones love.
Eventually i had to let go and let you be where you're suppose to be.
Thx for stepping in to my world for that moment of time. Perhaps, we shouldn't be tgt from the very beginning.

PS/ Letting go is also on way to show one's love.
At the end of everything, you will still find someone who stupidly loves you. And will always be tiongxim to you.

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Hello,(:
Sian, School reopen._. Today totally SUCKS lar!!!): When in to class, realise table and chair dk go where in the end have to sit at window there. I alone sial. Wtf, damn bueysong there. Suey luh me>; RAWRRRRR, im ANGRY )x
Although quite mad at Mdm meenu luh but since todays her BIRTHDAY so forgive her. Lol,hahas:D
Tmr must go tell her wo bu xiang zuo na li!!!!!
ARGHHH, i emo)':
Today out co-form changed. Changed to a woman. Which teach us lit. I dont like her. I want Mr Ray backkk!!! Lol~ Haiz-_-
Back to class, lessons as usual. No teaching lar. Then last period cme. Celebrated Mdm meenu's birthday. Danica bought cake somemore worrr.. Hehe^^ If im not wrong it should be mud choc cake??! I think so lar. Sing sirthday song then then she cut cake. The cake was not bad. Taste not bad. But dont like the cream taste. Today also gave out class photo. Bought 5 photos. Formal[1 5r, 1 8r],fun(1),fun(2),level.
I look suppaaa ugly yeh. Grr. Being ugly not my fault luh. Kkkk..blah blah then end school.
Toilet>Heartland mall>BBQ chicken>school.
Went BBQ chicken eat lunch. Tell you, dont order their cutlet and cream pasta.
It taste digusting!!!! The cutlet is not bad the creeeam pasta totally cannot make it. Huiyan also ate it. Sharon ordered mushroom chicken and cream pasta??!! Hers taste better please. Though also cream pasta. Lol,haha(:
Aft eating went back school for cca w Sharon and Huiyan. Today guitar lesson not bad but play until hand veryyy pain. Forth finger 脱皮 le. *sob. Nehmind~
Aft guitar saw Danica. Then went off. Waiting for bus then saw Sayhui waiting for her Dad at the bus stop. Then Torrie came. Hehe, she take samee bus as mee. Chuhua also came. Alsooo same bus. But dint sit w them. Haha<; Reached home bathe then useee compp,(x Praying real hard that tmr will be a better day!! God,!! Okieee, Baibai(:

PS/ Everything dint change, exept for me. How i wish time could rewind backk to the dayys when im not in this state. But i have to face the reality.
When sad times are around the corner, you start to shed tears. Falling in love w someone is so exciting and happy. But when you start getting hurt, that feeling srsly sucks ttm.
Although you tend to miss, but when it's time to let go, its time for you to say goodbye. Though its tough but you still have to live w it.

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Yo!!!C;
Im rotting in the hotel room. LOL<: Kay, im srsly bored can. Shop for the whole day today. Hehe^^ Bought loadsss of stuff,(: Woaini mommy and aunty(L) Buy this buy that for me. Muahahaha:D Dint go for practice,training,rehersal. Oops!!! Im so dead can. Idc, come here better. Right?!?!! Anyw, im coming back a few days later. RAWRRR. I need to kill all my homeworks when i reach homeee. Wtf, i will die sial. ): Hai._. must chiong chiong chiong.....! Andandaand, when going back Singapore, im going to get my contact lens soon. WAHAHAHA:DDD Thx daddy. Going to buy clear contacts, grey and navy blue. Should i get navy blue or purple??? But grey is confirmed. I crave for grey until im going crazy. Bought once before. Cheap one. Bought it at $14 . In the end wear until sibei sibei dry. Throw it away. GRRRR>: Nehmind.
My father's watching world cup. In korean. He watch until so tou ru. HAHAS(: My mother packing things while nagging at me. Keep say i buy so many things. Buy non stop. Funny part is, she keep saying thing thing not bad that thing quite nice. Should have buy more. WTH. LOL,hahas(: Nag at me for buying so many still ask me should buy more. Mommy, you very cute ley.
Okayokay, go join my father watch worldcup. Brazil vs Purtugal(what countryy is this sial?!).
Still dk which team county leading ley.
Ooooook, Baibai(:

PS/ Every love, start w a smile,laughter,happiness. But when the romance ended, it comes w a teardrop,the sound of your cry,and the pain in your heart. Why there's no pain killer that treats broken heart. That heals the pain in you heart. But, im glad that im single. Because i felt relieved.

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Hihihihihi,C;
Im using comp at Hongkong airport the lounge. Flying to korea at 2. Huhuu(:
Fuck sial, cant go into msn. ): Anyw, I guess i will be able to post coz my dad brought his laptop here. Hehe^^ Kkkkk, sibei bored can. Haiz-_- Today actually got training but dint go coz went overseas then the teacher kpkb. I dontcare her. Muahahahaha:D
Im starting to miss my beloved friends!!!!>; Sianszx._.
Today supppaa short post. Baibai(:

Ps/ Yea, im single. Being single actually is a good thing right?!

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Yo,(:
我回来了'<; Wahahahaha, im back from malaysia, JB:DDDD Omg, i miss you people!!! Lol, though 1 day nia luh. Hehe(': Flying off real soon agn... Sianszx, mad tired please!!!! Slept at 4 plus ystd and woke up at 7 plus today tto come back to singapore. Luckily today bo traffic jam if not have to wait damn superrr long sial. (:
Anyw, HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!!!!!♥
ILY always DADDY<: Muahaha, thx for letting me be daddy's little girl for the past 12 and the half years ley:D MUACKSZXC(L)
Kay,end hereeeeee<;
Baibai.

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Heyys,(:
Okay, im too lazy to post what had happened etc. Maybe will post some random fotos another day. No promises. Hehe^^
Anyw, Im going overseas!!!!(:(
Happy and sad... Lol,haha;D
i will be off to malaysia tonight at 9 plus and will be back on Sunday(: Flying to Korea on
22 June;27 June. So yeah. i guess wont be posting so often luh. But will try k(:
keep my tagboard alive yeahs<; I will miss you people ): Bye, got to go(:

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Yo, <; ARGHHHHH!(: 6/10'09(L) class outing todayyyy :D MAD FUNNNNN (:
To those(6/10 people) who dint went for class outing,
Heyys, you people rlly miss out alotalotalot of fun please. You will regret one. (:
To those who went for class outing,
Hahas, (; We had great fun yea?! We're like damn supaaa high!!!C:
Ilove(♥ ) you!!!
Anyw, lazy to post bout what happen. Will post bout it tmr yea?!<: You can visit 6/10 class blog too. To know what had happened posted by Gennie!! Will upload the fotos we took today on facebook. Hehe(: Loaddds of foto sial :D We keeeep taking foto's todayyy^^ Muahahaha<; PHOTOSPAMMM. Lol, (; Andandand,
ILUV THE CLASSTEE♥
Although there's some error in the class tee but i still LOVEIT TTM <3
Okie,okays,kays,k (:
Bai bai, <;

Ps/ Gennie, my beloved OLBH, I♥ your msn dp!!! :D

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Hihihihihihi, (:
Okay, im damn sleepy and HUNGRY naoz please.
So this morning around 4 am plus, Sharon came to my house. She dabao bak ku teh for me. HEHE^^ Thx ley SSHL<: We watched naruto. Haha,C; Okay luh, i admit. I dont really watch. Sharon was watching. I watch half way play sharon's DS then lay here lay there. Aft that srsly sibei sian, and realise it was only 6.30 plus. Then we stop watching and sing k. I bo enery sial. LOL(x Then sing sing sing, like bout 8 plus liao. We over there talking bout want go where, want to what?!!! So decided to watch movie, went to check internet got what movie at what time. In the end the movie we wanted to watch only at vivo and yishun. So we dint went to watch. SIANSZX. Then we guai guai, went to do maths homework. HAHA:D:D Haven't even do one question give up liao. We both srsly damn fcuking sleepy. Coz dint sleep for the whole day. Then around 9.45 plus on call cab for Sharon to go home. And i went staright to bed. MUAHAHAHA(:
Woke up around 4 plus and here i am to post..
Still waiting for my food !!! Grrrrr, IM HUNGRY!!! Lol<:
Kay. End hereeeee^^
Baibai(L)

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Heyy, (;
Mad happyyy!!!:D JIRO♥ 出新书了^^ Huhuu<: It's called 梵谷與我. I WANT!!! Lol,(; Dk when Singapore will release sey. Anyone saw it tell me kay?!~


Nice right!!!!(:(:(: I know its so damn cool please:D ARGHHH, sibei excited now aye^^
Okay, im maddd... Im totally high now sial. Watched 完全娱乐 talking bout Jiro's new book and what Jiro did in Holland(: Muahahaha;D
And also watched some videos on Jiro promoting his new book etc luh<: Hehe;)
Anyw, tonight going to eat midnight supper w SHARON SIM!!(L) at 4 am plus. Atf eating she'll be coming over to my place to watch naruto. As her house the player spoiled or smth luh. HEHE^^
I guess will be damn funnn(: I suddenly feel like sing k nao!! Sianszx, bo kaki. Haiz._. Anyone feel like singing k?!!! Pei me sial. Lol~
Kaykay, end hereee(L)C;
Baibai <:

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Hihihihi, (:
Hmmm, not much happenings these few days luh. Haiz._.
Today stayed at home used comp till 4 plus then went to city plaza~ Huhu,(: Bought my essential, shampoo,conditioner and treatment. Finished using mine so went to buy today, Lol(:
Then ate dinner. Aft that went grandlink to look for Joanna(HyperChilli . )<3
Lend her my nf shorts for her camp,(: Awww, im so kind. Lol,lame~ Then slack slack slack chat chat chat etc. Then went to her mother's house w her just to simply pei her sial. How kind of me agn(: HAHAHAS^^ Then take bus back to city. Slack there. Then went home around 9 plus. And yeahs... Nao sibei sianszx sial. Anyw, Next week will be a real busy week for meeeee. Kay, end hereee for nao. Short post for today. Bai Bai(L)

Ps/Idontwant to see you agn! Idontwant to listen to you agn. Idontwant to see your text anymore. Idontwant to have your miss call agn. I WANT YOU TO GET OUT OF MY LIFE. But i just cant forget you. I hate you, i srsly hate you alotalotalot. But the thing is theres still that little bit love i had for you. I want you to be erased in my mind forever. But i cant. Because i bought a lousy eraser because i still thinks of you.

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